Wednesday, February 16, 2011
I had just woken up from a very sleepless night. I was about 10 days "late" and had decided to take a pregnancy test just to ease my mind. I knew I wasn't pregnant, I was just late. My body often pulls these little stunts so I really, really did not think I was pregnant. Well. . . . the first test popped up the word PREGNANT so fast I couldn't believe it and I just knew it was faulty. So I got another test out of a different box, different brand. And what do you know, two pinks lines = PREGNANT.
I immediately woke Keith up and told him. He was seriously asleep. He was rubbing my arm and he asked me why I was crying. I was shocked, scared, happy, scared, and shocked! I let him go back to sleep because I seriously needed my Momma. She was sooooo excited and she is going to be an amazing Grandma! I also told two of my best friends but that was it. I was not ready to tell anyone else yet. I got ready and went to school but yes, all I could think about was that I was having a baby!!!
I really needed my doctor to tell me I was. So I made an appointment for right after school and sure enough, their test had the same results. So now I really know I'm pregnant. But I don't feel pregnant. It's such a weird feeling to have. I mean, I know that I am but I really don't know that I am. I can't see it, hear it, feel it, or anything. I honestly am afraid that I will lose it and not even know. It's crazy I know but all these emotions are going through my head. I felt so overwhelmed.
Keith is beyond excited!!! It calms me and brings out my excitement when talking to him. He is already looking for me a new vehicle. He is making other plans and talking about everything. It is so great to hear him so happy! He is thrilled at the thought of being a Dad! It's so neat! This baby is going to be so loved by so many!!!
Before I went to bed I called my brother, my grandma, and my aunt. My brother was in about as much shock as I was and kept asking me if I was joking. My grandma is SO happy and excited! She has been ready to be a Great Grandma! And my Aunt, well she guessed it right off before I could even tell her! :-) She did the exact same thing when I called to tell her I was engaged. I tickles me pink to hear my family so excited! Keith has began telling his family and will finish spreading the news today! I plan on telling my co-workers today as well!
Wow! I'm having a baby! I'm going to be a Mom! I can barely wrap my mind around this! Even through all of the shock and nervousness, I'm so excited! This is going to be amazing. My life has changed forever!